Today was amazing. I got very few things done that I set out to do, but the day went incredibly well. Unexpected meetings always shift the day. It’s fun to go outside of the normal routine. I got to meet with people I don’t get to see very often. We had a birthday cake for a friend after our last meeting of the day. It was a yummy chocolate cake spiced with orange from the bakery where Martin and I got our wedding cake. It always tickles me to see a box from that bakery. That one bite took me back, and that’s all I needed. I’m happy to say that after my one bite, I brought the slice home to split with my husband and boys.
After work we had our department Christmas party at the home of a friend from work. It was perfect. Her house is warm and beautiful and inviting. She has amazing art and interesting pieces throughout. It was a treat to see everyone from both offices together outside the office. Her husband made the most incredible homemade pizza. I tried a small slice of two different kinds. I also had a small salad and a glass of wine. That was it. I didn’t snack on chips and I didn’t treat myself to cookies and peppermint bark. I talked to people and I mingled. Something I’m not known to do at parties. I’m usually shy and reserved and spend a lot of time just listening. I had so much fun.
I’ll admit I could just be on the honeymoon high of trying something new. It could be the beginning of a completely different lifestyle for me. I think I’ll give myself the luxury of deciding that it’s the beginning of a completely different lifestyle. I don’t have to wait for myself to eventually screw up because I always do. I have to catch myself all the time. I slip into patterns because that’s just the way I am I think. I chose to behave that way in the past because it was easier. I am working really hard on changing my old behaviors. The ones that would have encouraged me to try a little of everything at the party. The ones that would say it’s a special occasion, go ahead, you deserve it. What I deserve is to lose this weight that drags me down.
Though I came through on eating less, I did not complete my goal of walking 15 minutes. The best I did was walking to the local bookstore to pick up my Secret Santa gift. I literally didn’t even have time to sit down and eat lunch today. It was meeting to meeting to meeting then the party. That will happen from time to time. I accept that. I need to look to tomorrow and keep moving forward. It will be much quieter in the office tomorrow and I will be able to get out and walk. I feel good and I’m hopeful. Man, if I can eat only two slices of the best pizza ever I’m really on my way.
